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My Favorite F***ing Movie: Shadowboxing with Boys (American Pie)

I’ve been thinking about men a lot lately. I think we all have, whether we want to (we don’t) or not. I would love to de-center men, but they are…

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August 6, 2025
essays, film

On Girls and Goths in the Early Aughts

I think horror was always a part of my identity, lurking somewhere deep in my bones, long before I realized it. All things being relative, coming of age during the…

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June 16, 2023
essays, film

Revisiting CAM Five Years Later

I was just rewatching the brilliant film CAM (2018) yesterday – about a camgirl whose identity is stolen – and I was struck by how incredibly prescient the movie was…

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October 19, 2023
essays, film

Ode to the Slutty Halloween Costume

“In girl world, Halloween is the one night a year when a girl can dress like a total slut and no other girls can say anything about it.” That quote…

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October 6, 2023
essays, film

New Essay Series: My Favorite F***ing Movie

I’m very excited to announce a new essay series I’ll be releasing monthly all year long: My Favorite F***ing Movie is a personal exploration of sex through film, and Go…

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January 30, 2025
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    Babe, Sexy Books Podcast Is Back

    / August 27, 2025

    We’re back! It’s been three years, and while a lot has changed (Blythe had a baby!), way too much has stayed the same: Tr*mp is president again and we need the romance genre…

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  • essays,  film

    My Favorite F***ing Movie: Shadowboxing with Boys (American Pie)

    / August 6, 2025

    I’ve been thinking about men a lot lately. I think we all have, whether we want to (we don’t) or not. I would love to de-center men, but they are everywhere, owning and…

    read more
  • Books

    Ten of My Favorite Bisexual Romance Novels for Pride Month

    / June 3, 2025

    If you missed my previous post, I wrote about being a “late-blooming” bisexual and I would love for you to give that essay a read! In that same spirit, I wanted to give…

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  • Still from Jennifer's Body.
    essays,  film

    My Favorite F***ing Movie: For the Girls Who Go Both Ways (Jennifer’s Body)

    / June 2, 2025

    So I guess this is a released-at-the-beginning-of-the-month essay series now. It may have slipped your mind that June is Pride Month (it seems to have slipped passed every major corporation this year, for…

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  • essays,  film

    My Favorite F***ing Movie: Yes, God, Yes

    / May 6, 2025

    Apologies for this month’s essay being a smidge late; my husband recently started a night job at Universal and I barely know what day it is lately. My birthday was in April and…

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  • essays,  film

    My Favorite F***ing Movie: All the Boys Love Mandy Lane

    / April 1, 2025

    I have Covid right now—get vaccinated kiddos, it’s still a thing!—so I wasn’t able to finish the essay I had planned on posting this month. Instead, enjoy this essay that originally appeared in…

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  • Still from the film Only Lovers Left Alive (2013).
    essays,  film

    My Favorite F***ing Movie: Only Lovers Left Alive

    / February 28, 2025

    My mom died last October and ever since—and despite being a pretty skeptical agnostic most of my life—I haven’t been able to help imagining some sort of afterlife. The possibility of it. Coupled…

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  • Logo for My Favorite F***ing Movie.
    essays,  film

    New Essay Series: My Favorite F***ing Movie

    / January 30, 2025

    I’m very excited to announce a new essay series I’ll be releasing monthly all year long: My Favorite F***ing Movie is a personal exploration of sex through film, and Go (1999) is the…

    read more
  • The author's feet on a concrete pavement in front of a fence with daisies.
    Personal

    Life Update: The Bitch is Back

    / December 10, 2024

    …the bitch being my cyst. Or me, I guess, if you count whiny little bitches. If you’ve been following the saga of my Bartholin cyst, whelp—it came back a few months ago. I…

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  • Yellow wall with flowers growing up alongside it.
    health

    Bartholin Cyst Recovery Diary #3

    / July 30, 2024

    Well, folks, it finally happened. Almost exactly five months after my traumatic, painful, entirely shitty experience getting an infected Bartholin gland cyst lanced and drained in the emergency room… I finally had sex…

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