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essays, film

On Girls and Goths in the Early Aughts

I think horror was always a part of my identity, lurking somewhere deep in my bones, long before I realized it. All things being relative, coming of age during the…

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June 16, 2023
essays, film

My Favorite F***ing Movie: Only Lovers Left Alive

My mom died last October and ever since—and despite being a pretty skeptical agnostic most of my life—I haven’t been able to help imagining some sort of afterlife. The possibility…

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February 28, 2025
essays

On Britney’s Instagram, Selfies & the Mercurial Need to Be Perceived

I spend a fair amount of time defending women’s selfies in my head. Whenever I see comments on Instagram photos accusing women of “just wanting attention” or being “attention whores”…

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November 6, 2023
essays, film

New Essay Series: My Favorite F***ing Movie

I’m very excited to announce a new essay series I’ll be releasing monthly all year long: My Favorite F***ing Movie is a personal exploration of sex through film, and Go…

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January 30, 2025
essays, film

My Favorite F***ing Movie: Love in a Wasteland (The Doom Generation)

Happy Halloween everyone! A couple housekeeping items before we get into this month’s essay. First, I’m thrilled to have two new poems in the most recent issue of Lit Angels,…

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November 2, 2025
  • Rewriting the Whorearchy with Stephanie Parent.
    essays,  Guest Post

    Guest Post: Rewriting the Whorearchy with Stephanie Parent

    / February 13, 2024

    I’m thrilled to present a guest post from my friend Stephanie Parent – a fantastic writer, poet, and author of the novel THE BRIARS (which I cannot recommend enough). Today, she’s discussing the…

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  • film

    Favorite (Mostly Queer) Films of 2023

    / December 28, 2023

    While the horror pickings were, in my opinion, a bit slim this year, 2023 was a banner year for being queer in film. A year so good that Barbie and Bottoms didn’t even…

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  • health

    Pelvic Floor PT 101: What Is Pelvic Floor Physical Therapy Like?

    / November 16, 2023

    I’ve mentioned in the past (here and here) that several years ago I was diagnosed with vulvodynia and vaginismus – two disorders that often go hand-in-hand. Vulvodynia makes the vagina extremely sensitive to…

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  • Polaroid photo of the author, surrounded by glittery stickers.
    essays

    On Britney’s Instagram, Selfies & the Mercurial Need to Be Perceived

    / November 6, 2023

    I spend a fair amount of time defending women’s selfies in my head. Whenever I see comments on Instagram photos accusing women of “just wanting attention” or being “attention whores” because of the…

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  • Still from the film CAM (2018).
    essays,  film

    Revisiting CAM Five Years Later

    / October 19, 2023

    I was just rewatching the brilliant film CAM (2018) yesterday – about a camgirl whose identity is stolen – and I was struck by how incredibly prescient the movie was when it first…

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  • essays,  film

    Ode to the Slutty Halloween Costume

    / October 6, 2023

    “In girl world, Halloween is the one night a year when a girl can dress like a total slut and no other girls can say anything about it.” That quote is uttered by…

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  • Purple and pink flowers on vines.
    essays,  Personal

    Songs Are Spells, or, You Make Me Want You

    / September 26, 2023

    The other night, I fell into a deep, velvety-dark hole of nostalgia. It began with a few Christina Aguilera music videos (the Dirrty years), which led me to Avril Lavigne (and her most…

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  • Red flowers behind fence.
    Personal,  Writing

    Love in the End Times: Two Poems

    / August 11, 2023

    You may not know this, but sometimes I also write poetry; I even have a poetry book you can buy if you’re interested. Here are two poems about love and the end times,…

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  • Personal

    I Wrote This Stoned at 2PM on a Tuesday

    / July 20, 2023

    I haven’t slept well in 2.5 years. About six months after we moved into our last apartment, we got new neighbors above us. Neighbors who never slept, nor removed their boots, in a…

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  • Tosh from Urban Legend.
    essays,  film

    On Girls and Goths in the Early Aughts

    / June 16, 2023

    I think horror was always a part of my identity, lurking somewhere deep in my bones, long before I realized it. All things being relative, coming of age during the early aughts as…

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